diecinueve.i feel alone butdiecinueve. by A-Lovely-Anxiety
only because i choose it.
i don't think people understand that
i distance myself because
i want to. being on your own
is easier than having
to deal with people and smile and
laugh like you mean
you don't really mean it.
if i am lonely,
it is only because i have
made it that way.
being lonely is easier than
being in a crowd,
just as learning to swim is
easier done in a pool than
in the ocean.
(the thing i like most about being
alone is that i can
feel the way i want to whenever
i can, without people
it's so much easier not to hurt
when i am not with people,
because the people i am with most
often are the ones that
make me hurt. i am not a fighter.
i am a lover.
and so i am easily walked over.
i am a doormat.
but being a doormat is easier
when fewer people
wipe their shoes on you.
Relaxing Heart BeatRelaxing Heart BeatRelaxing Heart Beat by Wicked-HP-Disney
I'm awake and excited, I worry that I'll be unable to relax. Then you wrap your arms around me. I place my head on your chest. I listen to your steady breathing and the calming beat of your heart.
My eyelids grow heavy, as your heart still thumps in my ear. I move closer to you, closing off the small distance between us. I feel you move as you laugh. I drift off to sleep, still listening to your beating heart.
I guess the sound relaxed me. It reminded me how close you were to me. It told me you were mine. Hearing the thump of your heart in my ear just put me to sleep. I know with each beat and thump how you feel towards me.
Shells (Evolution)Shells (Evolution)Shells (Evolution) by chromeantennae
Shells of hideousness conceal shattered beauty,
As the shell with the weight of Heaven,
Leaves its entrapping chamber;
It tears your cheeks,
And the seams of your skin.
Taking rest in your ribcage,
Your knees weaken as you lie on the ground,
Clutching the hot wound, as the rest of you…
Is going cold, growing old,
The grim reaper over standing,
Your features lined with fear and understanding.
He takes his scythe taking you into the dark side of the force.
Your vital force escaping Élan vital.
Vitality takes no precedence in time,
Your humanity being eaten away by lies,
“The flow of pass to future.”
As the beginning of time,
Starts when your mortality is unchained,
By the blade of his grim ways.
That shell in your stomach,
Is hideousness concealing your shattered beauty,
You are now…finally set free.